♥ Big Mouth

Sometimes I really hate my big mouth.

I'm the type of person that speaks rubbish when I'm nervous.
And that really really really sucks sometimes.
Like this afternoon.

I'll bet A thinks i'm some sort of psycho weirdo stalker or something.
And he speaks to me in this really "I-so-can't-be-bothered-with-you-so-leave-me-alone" tone.
I was like trying to hold a conversation with him but he kept looking away and giving me brief answers.
Argh.
He was talking to the other 2 girls perfectly well.
But with me it was totally different la.
So annoying.
And I totally embarrassed myself in front of him.
Argh.

I gave him his present before class tho.
And its too small so i have to go change it.
But well it wasn't that bad.

After class, i stood outside the studio drinking 3 cups of water, hoping A will like say something to me or something, but no.
So okay.
I went to buy kailing's bubble tea.
Then I came back, gave kai her drink, then walked out.
Then the 2 girls that A was talking to finished talking to him and went back in to join Glady's lesson.
Then I said something like "oh they're going for Glady's lesson?"
Then he was like "Ya. They were just asking me about some competition."
So I was like "Wa. They missed half the class talking to you ah."
[Told you i said weird things]
And he was like "Warm up only what."
Like it was no big deal.
Like Glady's warm ups were no big deal and talking to him was more important?
I dunno.
But that line gave me the impression that he thinks very highly of himself.
I dunno why.
Then after that i tried asking him a few questions [aside from all the crap that was coming out of my mouth cos i was so bloody nervous] but all i got were like one word answers so i gave up and left.
And it was so embarrassing.

I think maybe next time I'll go late and miss his warm ups.
See how he feels.
Then again, he probably wouldn't care.
Cos people come in when he's doing warm ups all the time.
Like today, there were only what 5 people when he started doing warm ups?
Then after warm ups it increased to like more than double.
So yeah.
He probably doesn't care.
So whatever.

I was so embarrassed after that.
I just wanted to shrivel up and die la.
Quite depressing.
I hate my big mouth.

Anyway.
Went to meet Chesed after that.
Like, the ONE time I'm early,
She's late.
WTH.

I could've gone for Glady's lesson and still made it earlier than her.
But no.
Thanks to her i had 45++ mins of rotting with nothing to do.
And Kai said G's lesson was fun today.
Argh.
And G looked quite disappointed that I couldn't attend her class today.
I should've gone for G's.
Then maybe it would've saved me from my embarrassing encounter with A too.
チクショー。

Ohwell.
Found out today that the choreo Willy taught us on monday was the choreo that SRJC was gonna do for the SR musical.
Which means Chesed is gonna perform that.
Yay.
I'll get to see her doing Willy's [gay but nice] choreo.
The Scooby Doo is kinda cute!
Lol.

Yeah well.
Her SF bbq was fun I guess.
Ate a lot la.
Feel like a pig.
Had like... 8satays, 2+chicken wings, 2 otahs, 5+sausages, and two whole plates of bee hoon.
Ahh.
Tmr must lose weight.
Amazing race.
Hope Chesed isn't late.
Haha.

I am SO broke.
Next 2 weeks cannot spend money liao.
I don't think I'll get myself a pair of shoes.
Unless I find one that I really really like.
Like the Black White and Red Nike Air Prestige.
So. Yeah.
Need to fill up so many forms for my TP application.
Ahh.

Bye. Gonna try to sleep early tonight.
Ciao~

Cuz I wanna be with you
[me?]
Yeah you.
[me too]
一緒にいたい
[me too]
遊びたい with you
Cuz I love the way you do the things you do.

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