♥ Fire on ice

I just had the biggest scare of my life
I swear
My "Serene" folder was on "hidden", so i couldn't find it.
Thankfully i ran a "run" program thingy
And i found it
Cos i realized all my iTunes songs and stuff was in there anyway, and i couldn't have deleted the file cos then the iTunes stuff would be gone as well
So.
Ya.

Back to my boring life

I'm gonna post some random quotes from this book i'm reading
Its really interesting
I like books
I lets me imagine
When i read a book, i go fully 100% into it
I feel as if i'm the main character
I can feel his/her emotions
What he/she's going thru
Books

Fantasy on paper

I wonder if I'll ever write a book
Probably not.
I can't pen out my thoughts as much as i can imagine them
Brief outlines. yes
But not in a story
I like to imagine stories tho
How my life would be
If i was somewhere else?
Someone else?

not me

I wonder how its like to be in love
I mean, really in love
Like what's written in books
Is it really possible?
Feeling the longing for a person
Not getting enough of a person
A feeling that doesnt die out with time

But he doesn't even try. The kisses are like candy. A sweetness. A hunger. I can't get enough.

Oh well.
I also wonder what its like to fit in
To be able to hold a conversation with someone
Instead of just sitting in a corner
Staring into space
Like waht i do all the time
Everyone gets along fine with everyone
Without me
I'm just a wall flower
I doubt anyone notices me

Looking in from the outside

I wanna feel loved
By family
By friends
I wanna hold a conversation with someone
Without that awkward silence that usually follows
Why can't i get along with everyone like YOU can?

Skin on skin. Fire on ice.

Even if i smile
Most people ignore me
Sure, i get a hug or two
Then the world just passes by
Without me

Without me

But no, don't worry
I won't leave this world without doing what i came to do
Do what I can
Encourage those that need encouragement
Laugh with those willing to laugh with me
Comfort others when they need a shoulder to lean on

Will I make a difference to this world?

Anyway I'm gonna sleep now
Gotta wake up REEEAALLLY early tml
Yawn
The things I do for LOVE
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